I just forget about it and busy preparing myself for my exams. After exam all of us back to home for two month semester break. At home I don’t have anything to do, so again I start to chase the young man. I create a new account in facebook named Princess Pupu because he blocked me previous facebookok account so couldn't reach him and he changed his mobile number. So I send him friend request again and he accept my request after an hour. I check my chat box.wow!!! Vincent is online...very excited…I start to chat with and he replies all my messages in the chat box. I get know that he is looking for a job. So I plan to look a job for him and ask him to send his resume to my email address. After few minutes, he tells me that he send his resume to my email address. He thanked me. I quickly check my inbox and I download his resume.Oh my god, I just seeking for his new mobile number but now I’m having a complete details about him. That night itself I apply job for him. I just 19 years old and I don’t have any experiences in applying jobs. So I request a help from my elder sister and she teach me to do so.I feel like want hear his voice, so I call him and I don’t know what to talk,my heart is melting and my hands are shivering ,I just ask him some questions regarding the job application. Just think that his voice make my day. Then, we start to be close but I don’t have the dare to tell me real identity to him because I know he won’t forget name that easy. So I lie to him about myself including my name, age, and date of birth send him my photos and we just be very close. In the while being close with him, I feel he is a gentleman, I feel I want a husband like him in the future. I don’t care whether he is a gay and jobless but I slowly I fall in love with him and I decide to propose him email him about my proposal. After he read my email, he text me that he is shy and I propose him in a cute way. But he refuses my love because he is a gay, jobless, and not an educated person. But I love him so much…even what happen he is my husband and he is my man. He is from poor family, his mother is a rubber tapper and his father is a normal factory worker...he is the elder son in the house and he have two siblings to look after. So after I know all this I want him to be happy as me and I try to help him.

Today morning, my friend Sintu call me…she is my best friend, so I tell her everything that happen between Vincent and myself .she is shock and she start to scold me. She tells me to think before I do something. She tells me he is a stranger. You never had met him before and u just sees him in photos and how sure you are that he is a gay and from poor family. Don’t make people fool you because you are so naive. I start to cry and I type a long email that I scared to be with him and I’m worry that he will play a fool with me and I send it to his email address. The next day itself he message…he says he don’t think that our friendship should be continue because we are hurting each other and he says he won’t text and call me after this and I must do the same start to cry. I never eat and fall in sick and almost faint. My elder sister calls him and scolds him. He says that I go after him and I force to love him. He told my sister that he knew everything about me. He knows my real name and age. He still remembers me but he never ask me anything because he doesn’t want to hurt me. Then my holiday is going to finish…I went back to hostel and suffer each and every day can feel that he is avoiding me. I cannot concentrate in my studies.I'm not being myself. But I know he is happy there...from that moment I know he is not deserve for my love and he hates me so much…all this while he just act as if he like me so much. He is a sweet talker. He love to hang out with his friends in the club...he is an alcoholic (sometimes).I knew all this since before but I still make my heart strong and I love him deeply. Does he lie to me that he is a poor kid? How he can hang out with his friends’ everyday while he being jobless? But I still trust my love. He won’t lie to me because he is a gentleman. He stop messaging me and call me. I will miss him to the maximum and I will text him but he won’t reply me. A friend of mine added him in facebook and she tells me that he is in love with someone else. He went to watch movie with someone and he is in love with that particular person. Again my tears drop feel like someone poke my heart with a sharp knife love him so much and I couldn’t take it when someone try to own him and his love. I call my mother and cry to her. My mother try to call him but he never pick the call. He even never bothers about my mother. Why he doing all this? Then my brother in law call and advice me…I try to divert my mind…at that moment I know there are lots of people love me so much and I just ignore them for him. My friends make me smile. My lecturers start to advice me and hang out with me. My brother in law and my sister drag themselves to my universities and spend time with me. His photo will be my laptop wallpaper, so whenever I turn my laptop I will start to cry .Even though he never cheat me but he hurt me a lot and never give respect to my mother, and I know he will pay for my tears one day..I will always suffer each time I see his photos but I don’t have the ability to fall in love with other man. I just concentrate in my studies..Time runs so fast.5years gone...now I’m a doctor and I feel want meet him because just want make him regret because he missed me .I look back his resume and get his house address .I go to his house and I get know that his mother force him to marry a girl and now he having two princess. He is happy I guess. I want him to be happy even he is not mine.I'm just unlucky to get him. His wife his lucky...but I’m very happy because my love is true…I cannot love another man…he will always will be in mind and heart…his sweet memories, his sweet voice, sweet smile and his cute face will. But I’m very sure that he will pay for my tears one day.