Freshman year was a big twist for me. It all started my freshman year of high school, the year I came back to school after two years of being online due to quarantine.  This year was the year I made my big mistake, this year was the year I failed myself and the people around me. It all started my freshman year when I chose to slack off and not take school seriously. All the days I wasted sitting in my room all because I chose to stay in bed instead of getting up. 

With all this being said, my favorite mistake is choosing to slack off my first two years of high school. Although this is a bad mistake, this is also my favorite mistake because I feel that I’ve learned alot from it. During the middle of my freshman year is when it all started. I started losing all my motivation. I always slacked on my work and hardly came to school. As soon as I got home, I would go straight to my room and sleep with homework due and a messy room. From there on out, things would get worse & worse. During my sophomore year of high school, things stayed the same. I went from being the quiet girl who does all her work to being the girl who skips class and doesn’t turn in work. I would miss some of the most important days just because I was too lazy or because my friends weren’t going to school. 

As I went back to school, I had many missing assignments and even some things I couldn’t make up. I didn’t realize the effect this had on me until I actually snapped back into reality. Over the summer, I had to take summer classes due to me slacking off and not taking it seriously. During this period of time, things changed alot and I realized I was getting closer to finishing high school and not getting farther. During this time, I also realized how much I disappointed my mom and others in my family because of my decision. They weren’t used to seeing me like this, they were used to the 3.0 GPA student, not the 1.0 GPA student. My mom then told me that I need to get my life together because I’m going to be an adult and she doesn’t want me to go through what she went through. Seeing how much I disappointed them, I soon then realized that I had to get my stuff together. I also started keeping my distance with a few people that I knew were getting in my way because I knew what they wanted was not what I wanted for myself or my future. Although I’ve had good memories with those people, I see my future more brighter than they might see theirs. 

This year which is my junior year of high school, I took my mom’s words into consideration and I realized my mistakes and fixed them. This year, I’ve only been focused on me, my school work and my grades. As I started seeing life like this, I’ve noticed improvement in my grades and also in my mental health. I’ve came to the conclusion that my decision was the best I’ve made for myself so far. With this being my decision, I’m thankful for slacking off my first two years because I feel it changed me into a better person. I’m glad I slacked off these years instead of my junior and senior year because it would’ve been worse for me. I believe that I will succeed and go far farther because of my decision. I believe that I will walk the stage with better grades and attendance than I’ve had my freshman and sophomore years.