silence surrounds me. no idea about anything. my brain's numb, my heart's sore, nowhere to go, no one to talk to, nothing left to do. this feeling engulfs me.. takes me down with it.. am i mad or just delusional..?? am i dead or just unconscious?? "HELP ME! HELP ME!!", i hear a voice.. is it just in my head or some body's really crying out. oh wait! that's my own voice.. but there's no one around... I'm all alone, in this darkness...wait, this is just a dream.. I'm dreaming.. it'll all be over once i wake up.. i pinch myself; "GET UP! wake up!!" it's over now.. open your eyes..!! it's finally over!!



i can see the light now, in the distance.!i walk or rather slither towards it.. my legs are numb..it's hard but i try.. the light is nearing..or is just moving farther away from me??!?! "No!! don't go. don't leave me here.. all alone.!! kill me but don't desert me. I'm coming. I'm coming!" i try to reach out but its too far. i need to get up and walk fast or rather run. "don't die out.. please stay alive. I'm coming!" i try to get up on my feet but i fall! i try again. i fall. i try once more. i fall. i pull myself up. i fail. i try again. i succeed.! finally!!!



i can hear something. sirens blaring in the distance. its a faint sound. i try to block it out. it gets louder.. "STOP IT!", i cry. it gets unbearable. i can't take this anymore. the light seems to be dying away slowly.. i need to get to it.. come out of the darkness. it's going to kill me.. but I'd rather die chasing the light than let this darkness kill me.. the sirens get louder.. the noise seems to be nearing me. i walk fast. i start running.. "YOU CAN DO IT!" i run faster..! its dying away. the noise gets louder.. i run.. it gets louder......... i finally reach...but i fall..i can't get up now.. my strength betrays my will..!!



i can see something. it's coming towards me. it brings the noise with it. it's killing me. "GO AWAY! LEAVE ME ALONE!" i can see it receding.. going away.. or is it me leaving? the last shreds of life desert my body.. it lies there on the ground as I'm lifted.. i feel weightless.. i can fly.. i can see the light now.. i 'm headed towards it! "I'M COMING! FINALLY!"



rebirth. a foreign concept to most but i just experienced it.. it's beautiful. It's indescribable! i can live again. I can feel again. I feel lightheaded as i set out to achieve my goal..! its far but its not late. and I'll make sure that it's never too late!!!