"IS IT JUST ME?" I think that it is one of the most delusional question of every teenager but maybe it just never got its right place. This question's answer never got justice, not a single question remains unanswered but thousands of those curiosity tingling in the brain and the creativity is shot dead with a single word answer. Maybe its not always society but our inner instinct which doesn't let the tinglings come out and just muddle them up in ourselves.I realised it a few days back when I became the victim and the culprit of my own story, I wanted to host a podcast second time or maybe would it be fair to say it first time? because when earlier I did, it failed, it didn't go well. This time I learnt what I didn't do well but still after working on my shortcomings, I felt a gap; a gap of understanding between my heart and my brain. My brain said "why would anyone listen to a podcast hosted by a thirteen year teen that too who has failed in hosting it in one go?" but at the same time my heart believed "I can do it" and believe me or not I don't know even without even thinking of the execution plan of the podcast came my delusional thoughts of what I would do if it becomes a success? So basically before even getting into the war I thought of the winning of a medal and recognition. At this point of time, I was perplexed that if I am being greedy or just natural? Definitely no search engine would have answer to it and how can I think of asking others because I doubt myself about of lacking something bu my intrusive thoughts seem to have literally no bound, a day I would want to excel the podcasting skills and the other day I would want to excel a solid sense of humour but maybe anything does not come easy. Each day comes new delusional thoughts, Is it just me?