I remember you telling me that you're afraid. How i would just laugh and tell you that there's nothing to be afraid of. I always tried to be the strong one and never show fear. It seems like so long since then, I cant believe it was just a couple of months ago that I had you. You were 'mine'. Such a simple word but with so much meaning.

Something you taught me is that nothing lasts. I remember you promising me that we were 'forever'. How happy I was that day. How every time I heard the word 'forever' after that I'd smile secretly to myself and think about you. But now instead of a smile, tears fall down my face. What once made me so happy caused me the so much pain. Forevers long gone.

I remember summer days. Your laugh was my favorite sound in the world, no day was complete without it. Walking on the beach during the sunset, I've never felt so much love. We imagined our future together and it worked out perfectly. I couldn't wait for it to start.

I remember the day you left. How you couldn't look me in the eye. The whole time I was in shock. My whole world was crumbling down. I couldn't believe it. Not until I asked why. I had to sit down. It was the first time for you to see me like this and you had no idea what to do. Through all my pain I felt like laughing when I saw you fumbling around. How could something so important end with such a simple 'goodbye'? I remember you walking away while I sat on the porch with tears running down my face. It was the first time you ever saw me cry. But instead of you taking me into your arms like I always imagined you would, you walked away. I hope you're happy with her..

I remember sleepless nights and endless days. Always lost in thought. I remember every detail of you. People tell me to end this pain, move on, find someone else. But I'm afraid that if the pain is gone I'll forget. The pain reminds me of you. And the memory of you before her is all I have left.

For the first time in my life, I am afraid.