In the beginning, he was the best person in the world. He would get me gifts and say he loved me every day. Tell me I'm beautiful when I look my worst. Yet that all changed. It’s like he just shut off. I don't understand what happened, what went wrong. We were just fine then all of a sudden he just started being malicious. He would give me a cold shoulder, wouldn't tell me he loves me anymore, and even more. But recently he did something that I would never have thought the man I loved, the man I married would have ever done. 

He assaulted me. 

He's not the same anymore. I fear him and the things he can do and will do to me or others. I keep telling myself that it will change, he doesn't mean any of this, and he will do better. Yet nothing has happened, nothing has changed. I am getting sick of this, I can't just keep letting him do this to me. I read something online that said “A woman killed her husband, and was proven not guilty ''. She was on the Oprah show talking about how she planned and killed her abusive husband, It was truly smart. I want to try but I'm scared, what if I freeze up when I try, what if I can't finish the job? Should I do it? Could I even do it? I can’t... I can’t do this…    

Or can I?