Trying to be someone who im not.
Jumping to a cliff that isn't yet there,
Moving to fast, not enjoying the the time i'm spending.
Wearing what covers up who I am inside.
Covering myself with makeup, not thankful for my pure beauty.
Lying to my friends, forgetting that the truth does exist.
Falling into the bad reputation, that you never really had.
Believing the words others have said to put you down.

Tears streaming down my face, Where have I gone?
What was once me has been split up in two.
I'm trying to be someone im not.
I'm losing myself slowly

Forgetting the pain by wasting the night away,
One drink soon turns to another, then to a few.
I drink till i forget what has hurt me.
Giving trust away so easily,
and in the end getting hurt.
Making mistakes to be noticed,
But regretting what has turned people away from me.
Wanting to cause jealousy, Just turned into disgust,
at the site of two drunk people, giving away so much
He looks at what im doing
He sees what I have become
He's not jealous
He is disgusted
He walks up to me, his face flushed with anger.
With meaningful words he says to me;
"I want the old you back"
I am the no longer me, i am locked up, trying to be someone who im not.