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Practice Doesn't Make Perfect

November 7, 2018
By ellie_is_the_best BRONZE, Portland, Oregon
ellie_is_the_best BRONZE, Portland, Oregon
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Everyone seems to know the saying “practice makes perfect,” but it isn’t always true. Just several months ago, I realized this, and learned it the hard way. Practice can make perfect, but only if you practice the right way.

I had been practicing two pieces on the piano, Chopin’s Fantasie-Impromptu and a Bach piece, for several months. In March, I had performed the Chopin piece at a piano recital, and it had gone well, and I had auditioned for two music camps with the two pieces, and I had gotten into one. I was planning to compete in a competition in May, and I was confident, almost too confident.

“What could go wrong?” I thought to myself. “I’ve already worked really hard with these pieces, and they’re pretty good. I don’t have much to worry about.” I knew all of the notes, dynamics, articulation, phrasing, and had memorized it months before. People had complimented my playing, and even I thought it was good. I was ready.

“I don’t need to practice too much. If I just run through the pieces for the next few weeks, I’ll be good.” I had told myself, over and over. Little did I know that I would regret this decision.

On the morning of the competition, I stood in front of the mirror, wearing a white dress, as I brushed my tangled raven black hair out. I yawned and sighed nervously. “I’ll be fine.” I told myself. “I’m ready for this. I got this!” I grabbed my piano books and hopped into the black car waiting on the driveway.

The place we arrived at was a warehouse. It was by the airport, and was a tall gray structure looming over me. I nervously strode up the concrete step, clenching my sweaty hands. I waved at my dad, and he whispered, “Good luck!” to me as he pulled out of the street. I looked at my mom and my sister waiting in front of the building. My sister was smiling as she got into my dad’s car.

“Ellie! I won 500 dollars!” She played the violin, and had won first place in the violin competition earlier, but she just-so-happened to be the only one competing.

“Good job!” I shouted, high-fiving her as I passed her. “Nice! I’m sure you did amazing!” She beamed at me and closed the window, and I watched anxiously as their car rolled away into the distance.

Now it was my turn.

As I followed my mom into the building, I felt the ever-so-familiar butterflies in my stomach. My mom glanced at me behind her. “Ellie, you can go warm up in the other room.” She gestured towards a distant door, and I nodded as I marched through the room. The room was full of hundreds of pianos, each a different type.

When I arrived at the room, it was empty except for a large, brown grand piano. I set my books down onto the floor as I pulled the bench out and took a seat. I placed my hands on top of the keys, took a deep breath, and began to play the melodies I knew so well.

My fingers danced over the keys as I focused on playing my very best. I could describe what went through my head as I practiced, but it was just a giant mess of music terms and words that my piano teacher had taught me.

When I finished playing, I sighed nervously as the door behind me flew open. I turned to see what was happening, and saw several people clapping for me.

“You sound amazing!” A woman complimented, smiling at me.

“Thank you!” I replied. She started to walk away, so I resumed my practicing. I began to work through the two pieces, and felt satisfied once I fixed the Chopin piece quickly. I wasn’t as nervous, and only had one more piece to fix.

The Bach piece was a different story. I hadn’t worked on it for very long, but it was much shorter and in my opinion, easier. But once I started playing, I immediately began forgetting things that I had worked on, such as which fingers played which keys and how loud to play different notes, and even what notes to play. I sighed in frustration. Why was it going wrong?

“Ellie!” My mom shouted from outside the room. “You have five minutes, stop practicing and relax.”

“No! Mom, I can’t. I forgot some of the notes.” I told myself to stay calm and not to yell at her. “Okay, fine, I’ll take a break.”

We walked in silence to the main room, where the competition was being held, and I paused by a piano and started to fix the problems, but they just got worse the more I practiced.

I was doomed. I would fail the competition, and would be angry at myself.

I heard the judges calling my name, and followed my mom into the room. It was a dark room, although there were large windows, halfway covered by curtains, and two grand pianos. Behind the pianos was a table where the judges sat, and behind the judges’ table were chairs for the audience. I handed my music to the judges and walked to the front of the room.

I took a bow and sat down in front of the piano. I counted out the tempo in my head, placed my hands over the keys, and began to play the Fantasie-Impromptu.

It sounded nothing like how it had sounded in the other room. If someone was to rate it, my playing in the other room would be a seven or eight, and my playing here would be a two, if they were being generous. I tried to concentrate, but I physically couldn’t. My arms were tense and my playing was rushed and choppy.

When the disaster that was the Chopin piece was finished, I glanced over at the judges. They were scribbling furiously on their papers. One of them looked over at me, giving me the signal to start the next piece.

Everything that I had messed up on while practicing came back to bother me with the Bach. I started too fast, and couldn’t seem to control my playing. It couldn’t get any worse than that, I thought, as I stood up to bow after the piece was finished.

I walked, humiliated, out of the room and headed to whatever else I was doing that day, but I had learned a valuable lesson from the humiliation.

Although I had practiced for several months, and it had sounded good, the practice didn’t make the performance perfect. I had practiced badly, taking short-cuts and skipping what I really needed to work on, so my performance had gone bad. Maybe if you had heard it, it wouldn’t have been as bad to you, but I knew my potential. I knew how much better it could have gone, and if I hadn’t been so confident that it would go well, maybe it would have gone better.

Practice doesn’t always make perfect, but if you work hard, it can be perfect.


The author's comments:

This is the true story of how I failed a piano competition, and the lesson I learned from my experience.


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MSADunham said...
on Feb. 5 2019 at 1:50 pm
MSADunham, Greenwood, Arkansas
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Fantaisie-Impromptu under pressure is a formidable thing; simply taking on the challenge is impressive.