living in a world like mine is much more difficult than it seems. i naever know what i want, my mind is not organized in it's thoughts. memories, lyrics and thoughts run around in circles everyday. some may say that's mormal, some may say that it's a sign of insanity. but what do i think? i think i belong in a hole, that i don't belong here. all i ever cause is pain and worry. opon myself and the people i love. what can i do about it though? nothing, all i can do is continue living and try to change who i am. not all the heartache, happiness or death. no, none of that will change me. i will remain the same forever. a dark and twisty mess.