I am afraid. Those words can be the hardest things to say sometimes. Everyone loves to hate fear and the effect it has on people. People look down at me and think,
I would never be that afraid. Recently I’ve started to fear a lot more than normal. I’m afraid of flying, being alone, dying, not being able to be myself, being myself, failure, and the way people see me. Thinking about the world and everything in it that hurts makes me feel unimportant. I am terrified to face people at school, people who look down at me and look away whenever I speak. It’s hard to find a voice in so much fear. There are times when I want people to hear my voice. There are other times when I can’t even whisper. I have anxiety about other things, too. The thought of a plane falling from the air turns my stomach. Every time I go to a funeral I can’t help but think that people will visit my funeral one day. I am so afraid of any kind of pain it hurts.