Her.She's the one who cares like a mother.Who always makes me smile with her meaningful words ,or simply  just by her gestures.Who never fails to comfort me,even when she's doing her urgent work she would always be there for me,even if I'm not sad or just wanted to go nuts,she would always be there for me.There was never the phrase of 'once in a blue moon' in our friendship dictionary because she never put me aside.Well,that was until an 'accident' occured between us and got our friendship untie. Just like that. 

"Cause you're the apple to my pie,you're the straw to my berry,and you're the up to my high,--".Have you ever heard of this song?Perfect by Auburn?For me,it's not just a romantic song.It's a friendship song,a story about how best friends complete each other like a perfect piece of puzzle.About how they would always be with each other ,just like apple and pie.I have a best friends.Well,if I should tell you the truth I used to have a best friend and she has a beautiful name,Adziara,or I called her,Adz.Many people would think that Adz would be some arrogant high class snobbish girl from rich family.Someone who is dependent on her  parents.The truth is,she is far from that.She may be the last child in her family but she is one of the most independent person I have ever met.She likes to treat people and hate it when she owe something to people.She is helpful,beautiful,smart and atheletics.This may sound klisé but I couldnt help to argue with myself about the truth that she was borned blessed with.Another thing is,she taught me that cleverness or smartness dont just pop up by themselves.She is a really hardworking person especially when it comes to mantain her high grade.

Well,that was all before that 'thing' happened.It was all becuase of some stupid and jealousy and also hatred,mix together.It all start when we get to be into the same English class and when she started to put me aside.She started to ignore me and go to the second girl.And back then I didnt have much of a close friends.It's not like i always depends on her,but she  is the one who i can talk things about,wether it's silly or smart.She would never judge me.Other people does,or at least I think they do.I have anxiety disorder,a sickness or a fear or people judging you.Bottom line,I am kind of a clingy person.And A likes clingy person.It would make her feel special.And I didnt choose to be clingy.I didnt get enough attention from my family members.My siblings are too busy with their social media things and my parents ,dont even talk about them.All they really care are these two things.Their work and my grade.If they talk to me when they are home,which is very seldom,the script would be just the same ,"I heard that there's exam last month.How many A's did you get?" or "How many hours have you spent you time studying today?".So,if you are a human with some common sense,you could exactly see why I am so clingy to Adz.I don't want to let go of her.No,strach that.I love her.

To Adz,if you are reading this by now,until now there's no favourite day in my life but one.Our favourite day.Would you remember when we were in first  formest we had once took our bath in the centralized toilet because it has shower in it?I remember us with our petite first formest body running from our class to stop at each of our dorm,to collect shampoo,soap and obviously,clothes and came back with the essentials in our big bag,making others around us wandering what's inside it.I still love the moment we took a shower next to each other's stall and us hating the bath because we are not familiar with it.I still remember the time when its just the two of us in the class and we were bored enough to study so we started wandering around the school.And would you still remember our hide out and how did we find it?When we were wandering around the school we accidently took the wrong turn and end up in a library that is still under construction.You found a mysterious door and dragged me into it.You were adventurous while I am a scaredy cat back then.We found a stack of stairs that bring us to some water machine,some rack of old dusty books and the next level it had brought us to the top.It's just a small space and there's nothing in it besides some window.You and I smiled,already know the meaning of it.I counted until three and we both with all of our might pushed the old window and it was.Breathtakingly beautiful.There we saw some clouds,a flock of birds flew by passing us.When the clouds were already setting down,we could see the entire of our school!And at the world map,behind the hillswe saw a blurry sunset.It was breathtaking.It was ineffable.I genuinely smile and I could see some sparkle in Adz's eyes.We both enjoyed the view.Thanks Adz,for the most magical moment.

But we were both stupid,for breaking the bond and for not defending  our bond.Well,maybe Adz did and if Adz did then I was stupid.It all started when we were in second formest when,"Hey Adziara,can you help me with this essay?I heard you are very good at it",the girl said while staring piercingly at me.What did I do wrong?But that doesnt seem to bother Adz as she just smiled  and helped her.After a few seconds of anxiety,thank goodness Adz came back,shutting all the stare away from me.Had Adz not realize all the stare?She doesnt seem to be bothered at all."Adz,I think they are staring at me",I let it out,furrowing my eyebrows a bit."Let them be,Emma,you're not doing anything wrong",she said without looking at me."But I feel sick",I sighed."Do you want to go to the toilet?"she asked calmly.I shaked my head.Then the girl came again,this time without a book she is trying to attract Adz's attention.She tried to talk to Adz and a few moments later I heard giggling from Adz.They were both talking,I felt left out.I went to Min's table,she is kind of a closed friend of mine.She have a lots of friends gathering around her table and they were all laughing.Min was smiling at me once she noticed me,gestured to take a chair and join them.I nervously  smiled back  and slowly join them.It was awkward at first,but then I realized at least they dont make me feel left out.I sense a tingle of comfort the longer I seat with them.The bell rang and Adz is making her way to me,smiling."I see you have fun.We were both not doing much of our assignment for Madam Nana then",she grinned.I replied her grin with a casual one sided smile and we both make our way together.That is not very long until Serene,the girl came to our way and cut all of my talk.I tried to talk,she tried to cut it.In the end,she dragged Adz far from me and there I was,giving up and walked into my next class.As the first semester almost end I couldnt wait any longer.One have to remember that a person always have their patience limit.Serene cut my chat with Adz for only God knows how much,left me alone doing the assignment and the worst of all,you know that look you give to your friend when your teacher are handing you a partner assignment.But luck wasnt on my side,Adz choosed Serene.She came to me before went to Serene ,just to say sorry and the reason why she choosed Serene.She said Serene doesnt have friends except for her and she felt sorry for her and the list just going on.But would Adz remember that I dont have friends either?Would Adz remember that I have anxiety problem?And God is always with me.He sent me Hani , a girl,who was quite close to Min to pair up with.We work well,as a partner and since then I became closer to Min and Hani.From that I started to think,why not I just find a new friends?I could slowly swift up my wings and started to make friends with a group of friends.

A few month later there goes the new me,who likes to laugh so bad and putting all of my effort to maintain my grade with several of my friends,Heather,Natasha,Qissy and Flores.Heather and Natasha were hilarious.They would make me laugh with them bickering all day and all night.Until Adz approached me,saying why I am avoiding her.I defended myself and end up bickering with Adz.Later that night,I sent her a short note about to not approach me again and to forget all the  things about each other.For the second semester I have seem to be moving on.No anxiety and no  Adz in my life.But no matter how hard I tried I could not forget about all the memories that both of us built together.Well Adz,I could not forget about you.And maybe we could not be best friends again or maybe not even friends,but no matter how far you are from me,I would like to say these ten words.Stay you,take care,thank you and be safe,Adz.And that was the best yet the story about me and my used to be best friends .