Torn. split up. Abused and pushed away, It seems as if people hate me. I do everything in my power to make people happy. only a few people have seemed to stay, only a few have put up with me. i do everything to make people happy, but there are tI'mes where i feel as if I'm going to rip my own hair out. I'm tired of being used, I'm tired of people calling me worthless and calling me a nothing.i have been pushed to my lI'mit and I'm afraid of hurting someone, i do not know if i can control myself anymore. i am scared, scared of myself and of what i can do. I've been pushed for far to long and I'm afraid that someone is going to push me over the edge and I'm going to become the man i hate to see. My family make this situation no better, they have fought constantly for the past 2 years. Over and over again i have to listen to them, they do not realize how much they are affecting me, how much there hurting me.