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Because of You

November 17, 2022
By EveLOverlord SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
EveLOverlord SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
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The only way that anyone can truly learn is through pain, through emotional scars that remind you everyday why you won't make the same mistake again.


Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

 

I can’t help but sit and wonder

If we were to meet what you’d say

Or if you’d choose to stay away

These thoughts leave me torn asunder

And let sadness pull me under

Though I wouldn’t say I miss you

Sometimes my feelings will push through

Things I’ve learned make my world collapse 

Like how you’re a sociopath

I’m scared that part of me is you

You’re half of me, and you’re insane

What if I have your insane half?

 

Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

 

I hate that I look just like you

But what if it’s more than just looks

And I start reading through the books

Not wanting to be crazy too

In my mind, I tighten each screw

Taking care that not one is loose

Making sure my mind is abstruse

Now every day I think and ponder

Of my life, if you’d stayed longer

Fear controls everything I do

I avoid that part of myself

Because I want to be stronger

 

Because of you, my mind runs wild,

With questions about who you are

The few things I know are bizarre 

They make me scared to be your child

 

I did not deserve all of this

To be left by my own father

Stuck as an insane man's daughter

Crying alone in the abyss

Knowing now, ignorance is bliss

So here I stand all by myself

Questioning my own mental health

I can’t get it out of my head

That this is where I have been led

My feelings are up on the shelf

Until I’m ready to face them

‘Till then, my fears remain unsaid


The author's comments:

This poem is rooted in my real life, it is supposed to represent the feeling of a child who has had a parent leave them. 


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on Nov. 24 2022 at 11:17 am
EveLOverlord SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
6 articles 0 photos 11 comments

Favorite Quote:
The only way that anyone can truly learn is through pain, through emotional scars that remind you everyday why you won't make the same mistake again.

I am very glad you liked it

on Nov. 23 2022 at 2:12 pm
magabu256 BRONZE, Kampala, Other
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Anything you can imagine you can create. Oprah Winfrey.

this is a very nice poem. l could feel the emotion when l was reading it.
l hope to read more of such poems.

on Nov. 23 2022 at 9:45 am
EveLOverlord SILVER, San Antonio, Texas
6 articles 0 photos 11 comments

Favorite Quote:
The only way that anyone can truly learn is through pain, through emotional scars that remind you everyday why you won't make the same mistake again.

This format of poem is called a decima, it is supposedly the hardest format to write a poem in. I couldn't say why, however it was a bit difficult at times. This poem isn't based 100% on my real life and experience with this issue. I wrote it to get out my emotions on day and my teachers told me to publish it, so I did. I hope that anyone with similar issues are able to connect with this poem and find comfort in the fact that there are others dealing with similar things. This isn't just for children who were abandoned at a young age, it is for anyone who either has a parent or family member with a mental instability, or anyone who has lost a family member in general. The feeling of being left by someone is painful and different for everyone, and we don't always want advice so that's not what I am giving. I hate it when people immediately start acting like you are broke, or that you want (need) their help. I really do hope that people can take comfort in this or at least relate to it.