He has taken all of my tears,
Until numbness held me in its clutches,
For he has shown me a world without fear or rejection.

Only to uncover the truth,
The truth that I was so doubtful of,
The truth that I thought happened only to other people, not me,
The truth that he had
Betrayed me.

For how can I trust a man who has thrown away the love of his life,
And never looked back?
Who had ignored his family,
To pursue another?
Who had thrown doubt and suffocating loneliness,
Into his daughter’s life?

But…there is still
…hope

Because there is someone who will never forsake me,
Like he did,
There is one who will hold me tight while I cry over him and
What he did.

For my true father is
Elohim,
Jehovah-yasha,
GOD

God will always be with me,
guiding me through the cave of darkness and despair,
that has entrapped me in its maze of dead end,
where I can feel the tons of rocks above me,
pushing down on my shoulders.

God is my only light and map that can bring me to the exit,
And back to him and his house.

So unlike the son of earth,
The one who has left me in the stinging rain,

God will never
Betray me