his sad eyes

uncover feelings i knew were there

that i had forgotten

his smiling face

i see so infrequently

perhaps those days are gone

forever?

his awful habits

pull him deeper and deeper

in

to that never-ending blackness

where i can't help him

his secret cries for help

only his voice is different now

no longer the carefree, flirtatious grin

that exists only in my mind and his

as a memory.

my awful longing

his awful longing

for his return

oh, how i want him back

from the blackness ...

my heart aches, and another heart joins it

it is his

but i can't rescue him

and so our hearts finally

tear

i have failed him.