It hurts me to think that I will never get to see your smiling face in person again
It hurts me to think that I will never get to hear your voice, especially when you talk with your New York accent, ever again
It hurts me to think that the last time I spoke to you was more than a few months ago
It hurts me to think that the next time I go to long island, I’ll see your husband and kids and family, but you won’t be there
It hurts to me to think that the last time my mom spoke to you was a few weeks before you passed
It hurts to me to think that the last time I had the chance to speak to you and I didn’t take it
It hurts me to think that the last time I saw you in person was over two summers ago
It hurts me to think about the memories I got to make with you
It hurts me to think and hear my best friend talk about her little sister named Debbie,
It hurts me to think that my mom lost her best friend
It hurts me that your aren’t here anymore but,
It doesn’t hurt me to know that your aren’t in pain anymore
It doesn’t hurt me to know that someday I’ll see your smiling face in person again in heaven
It doesn’t hurt me to know that someday I’ll hear your sweet voice and New York accent in heaven one day
It doesn’t hurt me to know that the last time we spoke was when you had the crazy idea of me coming to long island, spending the summer there working, just to experience something new
It doesn’t hurt me to know that despite me not talking to you when I had the chance I can talk to you every day when I pray
It doesn’t hurt me to know that I will see you again one day; it will just be a longer period before we do meet up again
It doesn’t hurt me to know that I did get to make those memories with you and I will hold them close to my heart
It doesn’t hurt me to know that my best friend’s little sister Debbie, has the name of one amazing lady,
It doesn’t hurt to know that despite the cancer taking you, my mom’s best friend, you were there for her when she needed you
And for all of that, I thank you Auntie Debbie, God-mother, I miss you and I love you <3 RIP