The child was dying inside

And on the outside you couldn't tell.

Behind my smile is a hurting heart

Behind my laugh I'm falling apart

Look closely at me and you will see

The girl I am isn't really me.

I've been trying not to love you, I've been putting up a fight

I've been barely holding on and letting go with all my might

There's apart of me that's empty, I know only love can fill.

I'm afraid I'll never find it and scared to death I never will.

The scars are nothing compared to the pain that put them there

Sorrow, hurt and a bloodstained floor

Is this all I'm living for?

Scars, cuts and wounds that don't heal.

Is this a dream or is it real ?

In between the wounds that just won't heal

And the pain I'm too numb to feel.

I'm okay.