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Losing and Finding yourself

March 11, 2024
By DiaryOfDeer BRONZE, Brooklyn, New York
DiaryOfDeer BRONZE, Brooklyn, New York
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Favorite Quote:
“But how could you live and have no story to tell?” -Fyodor Dostoevsky<br /> "Don't Let a tough world take your kindness from you, I know you'll do great things" -Fortuitous


My love for attention ruined my impression. 

It was never my intention 

to lose myself in the process of expression.

But it seems I’m too late to be fixed 

and show who I am,

for everyone will call me a liar

when I name my true favorite desires. 


I have done and said things 

to get friends I don’t understand

so I wouldn’t end up alone in the end. 

now I regret every step, 

and wish to be known as who I truly am. 


turned back the time 

hypnotized everyone to forget. 

Let them know I’m not the person they think I am 


I didn’t realize it till I got left lonely 

and saw how amazing it is 

to have time for yourself.


I picked up my pen and started to write again. 

I picked up my brush and started to paint again 

I picked up the book and remembered 

how much I liked to read 

before the reputation that I dreaded took over my head. 


I put on a classical music. 

I no longer listen to what everyone did 

and I no longer dressed only to fit in 

with the wrong part of society 

I never really wanted to be in.


I chose a quiet life

and saw how everyone slowly left 

It no longer got me scared but relieved. 


I only kept my true friends 

who would be with me till the end, 

never judged me,

and forgave me 

for my past childhood mistakes 

that I was forced to make

they stayed with me till then. 


I am made for a quiet life 

I love nature, I love humans, 

I love God, I love my mom who I will always respect, 

I love my friends, 

I love the wind that flutters my eyelashes in the breeze, 

I love the rain, I love to dance,

I love to write 

and I love to deep think 

about every philosophical question there is, 

I love to read classical literature 

and most importantly 

I like myself because that is who I am


don’t let the Environment 

change you.

know that in the end

it will make you lose yourself 

no matter how happy you think you’ll stay, 

you’ll find yourself lost in the end.


The author's comments:

When I arrived in America, I realized that I completely changed who I was without even realizing it, after years when I went back to my country and grew up a little, I felt left out. the things I said and did for attention chased me around and embarrassed me, gave me a wrong reputation... but I've been working on restoring myself, which is what made me write this poem.


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