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Heaven's Meadow

September 28, 2018
By lahebenstreit SILVER, Lincoln, Nebraska
lahebenstreit SILVER, Lincoln, Nebraska
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Favorite Quote:
I go to seek a great perhaps.


90-110 beats per minute

That’s what the doctor should say-that you’re still in it

But that’s doesn’t happen

Fear creeps slow and steady

And you know that you’ll never be ready


The pregnancy test said positive

After months and months of trying you had your own composite of

A bundle of cells growing, sprouting like seeds from the dirt

You sat there bursting with laughter, while the baby grew inside of you, just a little introvert


But that doesn’t happen


Dear mother your body heaves with the falling of tears

I want to be there to chase away the nightmares

But that can’t happen

Dear mother I am so small, so young

You don’t share your pain with me, instead you hold your tongue


Father, with your iron shield

I can see your shoulders slump, your sword hard to wield

And you can’t make it happen

You can’t breathe life into something that has died

All that can be done is prayers on the side


Frank Sinatra said that love and marriage fit together like a horse and carriage

No one ever sung about what fit together with miscarriage


The mourning


And the mystery


And the misery


It has been a long time gone

Life is a chess match with all of us pawns

But I won’t let that happen

Mother, Father you may not know that I do think of that baby

I think of what it could have been but now it’s just a maybe


Maybe this and maybe that

Maybe a doctor or maybe a brat

Whatever that little person was to become I don’t know

But here’s an ode to the baby in heaven’s meadow.



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on Oct. 8 2018 at 9:50 am
Rhiannon_4 DIAMOND, Sioux Falls, South Dakota
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Favorite Quote:
If you chase two rabbits, you will lose them both. <br /> - Native American proverb<br /> <br /> Do not go gentle into that good night but rage, rage against the dying of the light.<br /> - Dylan Thomas<br /> <br /> What is past is past -- it is the present and the future that concern us.<br /> - Hiawatha, founder of the Iroquois Confederacy

This is beautifully written, and I can feel the emotion. Amazing job.