Let me sink into the pillows unknowingly sealing my fate, let my limbs tangled in the blanket oblivious, let my ignorance be bliss. Come on! Let the water rise so I may relish in the ice-cold sting slowly turning my skin numb and lips blue, let my eyes prick with tears from the water leaving no room for air. Don't open the door let me savor the isolation that comes with this never-ending cycle of self-sabotage. I did this to myself let me enjoy what I worked so unconsciously to achieve. I am alone left to sit with myself with no one to blame except me.