It's bad

But so badly do I want to go back

and feel your warmth

Soak my skin

I want to blur my memory with swindled sips 

and water the weeds of our past

But how long must I reseal the cracks

You've slithered in our relationship 

How long must I stifle this shame in the  catacombs of my stomach

Maybe I'll become one with the walls

And let you suffocate me to sleep

You're the reason I don't want to know myself 

Just darkness and deep

But the blood never stops

It simmers in my fingers and burns to my bones

So I want you to know 

Im done

Walking eggshells on your tongue

I'll stomp and drag my feet through the water

And watch where the ripples 

will flow

So go dig your eyes in my skin

And scribble words in my stomach

You're not mature 

Withholding your spit

Don't forget

The months I've spent curled in that bunker studying the tick of your speech

Anticipating the eruption of your lips

I already know the worst you can do

So go ahead

Because I'll metabolize the malice in your words 

I'll bellow the bullets I've reserved 

I don't care how bad it hurts

Too long have I stifled my resentment, my every objection, 

No I won't make an exception

I'll kill your twisted condescension

and make sure

You know 

Rejection