I tried to hold back an ocean of tears

With a wall so vast, I did not know where it began or when it would end.

But the water kept rising and rising

Till it rose above the wall

And came crashing down like a tsunami of emotions and tears

Of fear, sadness, anger, and disappointment

All directed at myself, and I could do nothing but cry

And wait for the ocean to dry.

The wall of pride, self-control, and self-confidence came down too.

Already I have started to rebuild this wall because of pride.

I am still in pain, but I say I’m fine

I still cry on the inside

But when the wall comes crashing down again

I hope to never rebuild again and instead find peace.