Afraid
to speak
To let my heart fall out my mouth

Missing
the summer heat
The freedom and feeling alive

Wanting
only to help a friend
Only to make things right

Wishing
they didn’t know
They should have kept their distance

Hoping
for the tide to turn
For the return of a friend

Needing
someone to understand
Someone who will be there always

Scared
of the past running to the future
Of missing everything in between

Living
in the moment of now
In the space of safety

Longing
for the laughter of my best friend
For the comfort of her presence

Angry
enough to punch a wall
Enough to ruin her face

Confused
in what to do
In who I am