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My Hidden Pain

October 18, 2009
By wafflesmego1 PLATINUM, Gladstone, Missouri
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wafflesmego1 PLATINUM, Gladstone, Missouri
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"Were gonna get through this together kiddo" - My grandpa

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Your doing it again. You said you had quit. I believed you. Why are you doing this to me? I believed you when you said you would stop. I believed you the first, second, and the thrid time. I kept giving you another chance, that was my mistake. Your messing up your life and mine. You dont even see it do you? Your all I can think about lately, about how your killing yourself, about how i might lose you. I feel trapped in a nightmare. I want to wake up but the nightmare never ends. Its reality, but I dont want to face the truth. I dont want to watch your life fall apart into nothing. I dont want to see you dissapear. I was suppose to be able to look up to you. How can I do that when I know what your doing is wrong? If you were to die tomorrow I would be mad and upset. You would care then. If you could see how much your hurting me you would quit. You would finaly see what I have been trying to tell you all along. Even when no one else does, I will still love you.

© Monica L., St. George, UT

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wafflesmego1 PLATINUM said...
on Oct. 26 2009 at 2:35 pm
wafflesmego1 PLATINUM, Gladstone, Missouri
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&quot;Were gonna get through this together kiddo&quot; - My grandpa

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This was about my mother and the whole point was to keep you guessing...Alot of people dont know why I feel the way I do when it comes to certain things. Like with my mother I wrote this so some people could put two and two together. I like to hold my feelings in and writting helps me get them out.
LeilaniLives PLATINUM said...
on Oct. 25 2009 at 10:04 pm
LeilaniLives PLATINUM, Fort Wayne, Indiana
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&quot;They say &#039;Life&#039;s two steps forward and one step back&#039; - But what if I tripped and fell down the whole flight of stairs?&quot;

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This reminds me of my ex-boyfriend. He was extremely suicidal and I used to cut myself. We would fight and he would tell me I didn't love him. I would cry and cry. Clearly, I loved him and I didn't want him to die. For 8 months after he began threatening me with killing himself, I stayed with him, always feeling like it was my responsibility. After all, I'm the one who made him so sad, right? If only I could prove to him I loved him as much as I did, he wouldn't want to die, right? Well, I was wrong. He ended up moving on and so did I. He and I both had a lot of problems and I learned we were unhealthy for each other; we were breaking each other down piece by piece. This piece spoke to me, whether or not your situation has anything to do with mine, it spoke to me. That's what I love about unspecific poetry.
FlyleafFreak DIAMOND said...
on Oct. 25 2009 at 9:34 pm
FlyleafFreak DIAMOND, Loveland, Colorado
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Wow. This is exactly how I feel about my best friend Kayla. Everything just clicked for me right here. Wow.
blingblang4eva ELITE said...
on Oct. 24 2009 at 7:38 pm
blingblang4eva ELITE, Fayetteville, Georgia
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very goodd
Secret_Love_Tells GOLD said...
on Oct. 24 2009 at 10:49 am
Secret_Love_Tells GOLD, Harrisonburg, Virginia
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This is really good! I have tried to tell my best friend something similar but she doesn't get it...
NessieMarie GOLD said...
on Oct. 23 2009 at 4:28 pm
NessieMarie GOLD, Minonk, Illinois
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OMG. this is awesome(: it like explains my life haha. your amazing hunn
beachgirl; said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 11:14 pm
Absolutely beautiful sweetie.
smithg said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 8:07 pm
This is a great poem. It really shows the emotion and feelings you have toward the subject. It would have been better if you would have told us what he/she was doing that is making you so upset, it also would have been better if you told who the person was who is hurting you, your mom or dad, a sibling, a boyfriend or girlfriend, or a grandpartent, relative, or other friend. Overall though, this was a great poem and had no errors.
HeavenCooley GOLD said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 12:43 pm
HeavenCooley GOLD, Stillwater, Oklahoma
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very extrodinary!!

its exciting but sad!!

i love it!!

keep writing.

i no how you feel ive been there

but yet ive tried killing myself i no

others thats done already tryed

it and left me in pain!!
m1ssdezi BRONZE said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 11:15 am
m1ssdezi BRONZE, Gulfport, Mississippi
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that was great and i no how that feels cuz i have been wanting to tell my mom that forever.
Jazzzy517 GOLD said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 10:38 am
Jazzzy517 GOLD, Meriden, Connecticut
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i can definately relate to this...... i wantd 2 tell my dad AND my best friend this but didnt kno how, this sums it up pretty well
Lacrymosa0427 SILVER said...
on Oct. 22 2009 at 10:03 am
Lacrymosa0427 SILVER, Neenah, Wisconsin
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&quot;One bright day in the middle of the night<br /> Two dead boys* got up to fight [*or men]<br /> Back to back they faced each other<br /> Drew their swords and shot each other<br /> <br /> One was blind and the other couldn&#039;t see<br /> So they chose a dummy for a referee.<br /> A blind man went to see fair play<br /> A dumb man went to shout &quot;hooray!&quot;<br /> [or: And two lame men came to carry them away]<br /> <br /> A paralysed donkey passing by<br /> Kicked the blind man in the eye<br /> Knocked him through a nine inch wall<br /> Into a dry ditch and drowned them all<br /> <br /> A deaf policeman heard the noise<br /> And came to arrest the two dead boys<br /> If you don&#039;t believe this story&rsquo;s true,<br /> Ask the blind man he saw it too! &quot;-i have no idea who actually wrote this poem but it was quoted on the movie &quot;Haunting In Conneticut.&quot;

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I know what it feels like to feel that way, i also know what it feels like to be told that. My best friend's boyfriend basically told me two days ago that, she feels like this.
Writedancelove&live GOLD said...
on Oct. 21 2009 at 11:20 pm
Writedancelove&live GOLD, Redding, California
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This is very well-written. I can kind of relate, I know what thats like...
StandardToaster PLATINUM said...
on Oct. 21 2009 at 11:12 pm
StandardToaster PLATINUM, Pasadena, California
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wow, this is really good. keep on writing!