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Climbing Out

October 24, 2009
By LeilaniLives PLATINUM, Fort Wayne, Indiana
LeilaniLives PLATINUM, Fort Wayne, Indiana
42 articles 11 photos 128 comments

Favorite Quote:
"They say 'Life's two steps forward and one step back' - But what if I tripped and fell down the whole flight of stairs?"


I'm not in control of my own life.
I don't control anything that happens to me.
I can't handle myself, nor anyone else.
I can't stop any mistakes I'll make.
I don't think I'll ever feel free...











Again. again. again.
Even when I'm out, the night is mine,
Even when I get away with everything,
I still feel trapped.
Even when everything is going well,
Even when it's warm and rainy,
I still feel strapped..

D
o
w

n.

Question after question, I'll ask...










Myself.


Why do I feel like this?
Why am I stuck here?



Why can't I escape?
Why won't it all disappear?

I'll search for answers that'll never be found.
I'll try for things I'll never accomplish.
I'll chase these thoughts around my head..




















f o r e v e r.
I don't feel like I'll get better, but I hope.
I don't feel like I'll change, but I want to.
I don't feel like this will work, but I
Have
Nothing
Else...






[to try.]

Sometimes I wonder for hours,
even days,
but now months could pass,
and those same thoughts will remain.
















permanently.
Again,


down,




forever,







myself,









to try,












permanently.

I've already hit the bottom,














| but I'm slowly climbing Up
and |
Out.

The author's comments:
Sometimes I see the text sprawling onto different areas of my paper, rather than all in perfect lines.

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ByThyName said...
on Apr. 8 2010 at 2:00 pm
I think people dont understand this because they havnt been through.. stuff but i completely understand what your saying and you nailed it, great work :D

on Jan. 20 2010 at 7:49 pm
LeilaniLives PLATINUM, Fort Wayne, Indiana
42 articles 11 photos 128 comments

Favorite Quote:
"They say 'Life's two steps forward and one step back' - But what if I tripped and fell down the whole flight of stairs?"

YOU ARE AMAZING. I'm pretty much not kidding. Your feedback is incredibly encouraging and someone finally comment my work as much I comment theirs. :)

But thank you! This poem actually has my lowest rating- a 4. I have 4.5 or above on the rest D: lol. I guess this poem is not in everyone's interest. But it was very emotional, so I posted it.

Thanks again, Leilani.

on Jan. 19 2010 at 3:00 pm
calephchad BRONZE, Guin, Alabama
4 articles 0 photos 84 comments
I looove this poem! Totally understandable. ! This one is my favorite out of all of your work. Even though all your other ones are really impressive also. ! I just really love how mysterious this is and how you express your anxiety. You pulled this off so well! I love it! I can sense the emotion completely. Thanks for putting this together and posting. I can just see how the thoughts connect to one another in such apprehension. I really love this. This relates to most of my work. Keep posting! I'm really interested in seeing more! :D

on Dec. 23 2009 at 7:22 pm
Morningstar PLATINUM, Geneva, Indiana
24 articles 0 photos 11 comments
I love this Leilani!

on Nov. 9 2009 at 4:26 pm
Inkspired PLATINUM, Whitby, Other
26 articles 0 photos 493 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;If one will scoff at the study of language, how, save in terms of language, will one scoff?&quot; - Mario Pei<br /> &quot;I write for the same reason I breathe - because if I didn&#039;t, I would die.&quot; Isaac Asimov

This is cool, slightly confusing, but it's like thoughts. I love the way you wrote it! Great job.