Sometimes
the pain you cause me is just too much.
Sometimes
my hidden tears fall from my lashes.
Sometimes
I can’t take the sobs that my body feels.
Sometimes
I break down and can’t get up.
Sometimes
I find myself thinking of you.
Sometimes
I find myself crying myself to sleep
as flashes of you play through my mind.
Sometimes
I find myself hoping for the impossible.
Sometimes
I find myself wanting to give up.
Sometimes
I feel like nothing will ever go right.
Sometimes
I wish I could tell you everything.
Sometimes
all I want is for you to be mine.
Sometimes
I wish everything would just end that night.


But somehow through all the bad
and the good I keep moving on.
I keep trying to overcome the obstacles.
I keep living my life
looking for something that
I can’t seem to find.


For you to see
that I’m in love with you.
For you to see
that you’re my prince charming.
For you to see
that you’re the one causing my misery.

But you don’t know of my depression.
You don’t know
of the pain you cause my heart.
You don’t know
of the tears my eyes shed for you.
You don’t know
anything about me.
And you never will.

No matter how much I want you.
I know you will never feel the same way.
All my 11:11 wishes are about you.
All my dreams involve you.
All my heart wants
is for you to love me back.
I know I need to give up
so my already broken heart
won’t suffer much longer.
But I can’t forget about you.
No matter how hard I try.
You’re like a scar
that will never fully go away.