i want to rap you into the little white papers,
roll you in between my fingers,
light you up and smoke you,
holding my breath forever.
so you are inside of me,
so you are a part of me, forever.

i want to steal your laugh, and place it in my mind,
so i can replay it over and over and over again.
so i feel like you are sitting next to me, holding me,
caring for me, protecting me, forever.

i want you to be here with me,
please be with me, forever.

but i can not keep you here with me.
i can not even keep you,
you are not mine,
you where never mine.

never mine to hold,
never mine to hug,
never mine to kiss,
never mine to touch.

but oh how i dream.