i grew up with you.
i yelled at you .
i regret it .
like something awful.
i wish i was nicer.
i was later.
the year before.
you died .
i stopped being mean.
but then that was only .
one good year.
i miss you .
i hate how i was.
i can't do anything now.
your gone for good,
i don't know how.
you could have loved me.
i was a brat.
but i stayed by your bedside.
for that last 4 months.
you got really sick.
you couldn't talk.
we had to feed.
dress and change you,
when you died,
i cried more then i ever,
cried before,
all day, all night,
just crying all the time,
i miss you,
i love you .
i hate how i was.
but i cant change.
the past. so i try.
to be a better person now.
it's not easy.
knowing i hurt you.
i miss you