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Alopicia Totalis

December 14, 2012
By BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don't always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don't necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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I'm different.
For a few reasons actually,
I'm more mature for my age..
I'm more insecure than any other person
But most importantly I have no hair
I get targeted and left alone in despair.
Some of you may not know what this is so let me inform you:
Alopecia Total-is is when you lose your hair; eyebrows, eyelashes, hair on your head, etc.
Now before you all judge:
To Girls, imagine yourself what you would do with no hair.
As if you woke up one morning without hair.
Well, that's exactly how it is for me everyday.
I hate when girls say they hate their hair..
They wouldn't understand how quickly I would take it from them.
I see with girls with gorgeous locks
Right then my mind is blocked.
So insecure
Yet nobody to let out to.
People say I'm brave for doing this
Then why don't I feel it?
When I look at myself,
I see myself as an outcast
People judge when they don't understand..
People tell me all the time,
"At least I have hair.."
It hurts.
What makes it even more weird is that i run my long fingers through silky hair of a stranger.
I can't walk out the door bald..
I hate the looks, the eyes bulging with stares.
People make me feel like I'm from a zoo.
Guys never like me for me..
I'm weird, strange; nova.
It is so hard for me to go to High School,
or even anywhere in public..
I would never grant this on any other person, for it brings emotional pain which i wouldn't cast on the person who I may not get along with the best.
One of the motto's that keep me going is:
NEVER SAY NEVER. -Justin Bieber<3

© Rebecca R., Edison, NJ

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BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 10 2013 at 6:28 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Awwww really? <33 Thank you so much! :")
DeathOfAStar GOLD said...
on Aug. 9 2013 at 8:00 pm
DeathOfAStar GOLD, Kailua, Hawaii
11 articles 1 photo 70 comments

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&quot; Emancipate yourself from mental slavery&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> - Bob Marley

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I love it. Flat out. ;D 
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 6 2013 at 6:44 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Awe! Thank you. It really warms my heart to hear that, and I know I've probably said that a lot in these comments but I mean it. It is great to hear such wonderful, and positivity from people on here. It makes me happy that I am getting out there kind of and I am on my way of being noticed. I want more people to be aware of Alopecia.. So thank you very much.
Shade3043 DIAMOND said...
on Aug. 6 2013 at 6:35 pm
Shade3043 DIAMOND, Shade3043 Did This, In Case Of Anonymous, Other
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When I was a boy, I would always hear scary things in the news and my mother would say to me, &quot;Always look for the helpers. Everywhere you look you will always find people helping.&quot; - Fred Rogers

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Hey, I love it. This is truly a great poem. I love how you wrote this with such grand and beautiful emotion. One of the most inspiring poems I've seen on this site. Five stars! :D
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 6 2013 at 4:35 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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I have a hair piece from locks of love and I don't really feel comfortable with wearing it with how they make theirs.. They make it like a suction cup to your head, and that is very uncomfortable, especially in the summer. But I appreciate the donations, I donated one myself, of course before I lost my hair.
SSSplatters PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 6 2013 at 10:33 am
SSSplatters PLATINUM, Plainview, Minnesota
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&quot;What does not kill you makes you stronger!&quot; or<br /> &quot;Your only limits are the ones you set on yourself&quot; Love doesn&#039;t bring happiness, happiness can just happens to be found easier where there is love-- Sam

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... a stranger's hair  I gave to locks of love before never thought about it the way you express it  
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 6 2013 at 9:55 am
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Thank you! It feels good to get all this positive feedback!! It really makes me happy that I am finally being heard. I'm sorry that you have something as well, but I would like you to know, that I am always here for you and I am always an open heart and an open mind for you. Keep going and keep pushing and Never Say Never. <3
Hanban12 ELITE said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 7:45 pm
Hanban12 ELITE, Lake Worth, Florida
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&quot;If you have built castles in the air, your work need not be lost; that is where they should be. Now put foundations under them.&quot;<br /> Henry David Thoreau<br /> <br /> &quot;I fell in love the way you fall asleep; slowly, and then all at once.&quot;<br /> John Green

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This poem pulls at the heart and never lets go. First of all, I am truly sorry for what you have and have been moved to tears. I can totally relate. Although I do not have your particular disease, I do have one that makes me very insecure as well. Wherever I go, I think people are looking at me, talking about me. Although this is probably not the case, as it may be for you, it is a terrible mental state to be in. This poem really hits those emotions to the tee and explained how I feel as well. Its so inspirational. Yes, we should all never say never, and I believe that is the goal to life: Never give up on what you believe in and keep pushing. This is truly amazing; keep me updated on anything new.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 7:45 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Dawhhh! That really makes me smile :) You have no idea how great that makes me feel to know that people are willing to be open and understanding about it. Some people are just rude about it.. But thank you, it really means a LOT to me. I want to be heard, and this is only the start.
Fallen_ PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 7:41 pm
Fallen_ PLATINUM, Quakertown, Pennsylvania
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&quot; a shattered world is only an opening into a new beginning with laughs, smiles, and love all around enter the world of the light and away from the broken darkness&quot;

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This brings me to leaping to the locks of love and donating everything. This peice is really moving becuase it is about you which is important in anything you do showing who you are. But what i like more is that this is inspriational it makes you want to be a better person to take a look at how you live your life and how you judge people. It was just really breathtaking and i am shocked and profound on why this is the first seeing this your just amazi8ng and i hope to read more from you.
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 5:07 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Awe! You don'r understand how much that means to me.. That warms my heart to hear that from you- or anyone for that matter. I think I will make a non-fiction piece about my story and publish it.
Mckay ELITE said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 4:59 pm
Mckay ELITE, Somewhere, Virginia
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I'm very moved by this profound and heart-braking poem. It's sad but at the same time empowering. Sorry to hear about this. I can't even fathom what it'd be like to have no hair. Even as a guy, I whine about not having the best hair. But I guess, you don't really know how good you have it, until you loose it. I'm not a fan of Beiber. But that last line, even I can't deny it, it's moving. And so true. I encourage you to write more. Even non-fictional pieces. You'll truly touch people with your story. 
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 4:54 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Really?? :")
winny_addams PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 5 2013 at 4:51 pm
winny_addams PLATINUM, Menomonie, Wisconsin
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Never judge a book you've never read!

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love ittttt
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 4 2013 at 6:31 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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I'm the character. But thank you very much. This is a true poem and it expresses how I feel as a person everyday, but I've grown to understand that I am beautiful without anyone telling me otherwise and I've only gotten stronger because of it!
Sudsinthebucket SILVER said...
on Aug. 4 2013 at 6:24 pm
Sudsinthebucket SILVER, ?, Montana
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&quot;The best and most beautiful things must be felt with the heart.&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Helen Keller

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I really like the emotion in this piece. You really did a good job with not just the emotion but protraying it in a way that people understand and can comprehend the pain the character feels I really liked it good job. :D
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Aug. 4 2013 at 5:17 pm
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Awe! Well thank you. That really means a lot to me. :")
Jade.I.Am ELITE said...
on Aug. 4 2013 at 5:09 pm
Jade.I.Am ELITE, Fishers, Indiana
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&ldquo;If you&#039;re losing your soul and you know it, then you&#039;ve still got a soul left to lose&rdquo; <br /> ― Charles Bukowski

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inspiring and beautiful, 5/5 :)
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Jul. 31 2013 at 10:37 am
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
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Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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Thank you sooooo much !! That's the type of feedback i'm looking for. (:
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM said...
on Jul. 31 2013 at 10:36 am
BelieveInLoveAtFirstSight PLATINUM, Manchester, Connecticut
21 articles 0 photos 61 comments

Favorite Quote:
The way I see it, every life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don&#039;t always soften the bad things, but vice versa, the bad things don&#039;t necessarily spoil the good things or make them unimportant. -The Doctor

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That really means a lot to me because my goal was to have others realize that they should be happy with what they have because others dont have it so easy.