Do you know how much pain you are putting me through?
Do you know how many tears I have shed over the last few months?
No. You do not.
Because if you did, you would not continue to treat me the way you do.
Countless nights were wasted because all I did was cry.
I felt like a lost puppy.
I didn’t know what to do, where to go, what to say.
You control me now and you know that you do.
You keep me hanging on by a thread, just to make sure that you still have me when it’s convenient to you.
I never thought that I could fall for someone that treated me like s***… again.
I have been through all of this before, and I promised myself that I wouldn’t put myself in the same position again…
Well, looks like I broke another promise now doesn’t it?
There is something about you that keeps me from letting you go.
I wish I knew, but at the same time… I don’t.
I fell for you the first time I met you, and I knew that it was a mistake.
Your personality, your looks, everything…
Just screams the word ‘Heartbreaker’.
You are killing me slowly.
I cannot stop my heart from loving you.
I cannot make my mind forget about you.
But what I can do is let you control me.
I am too weak to fight anymore.
I will be happy with be your “side” option.
I cannot let you go, because I am afraid of losing you completely.
That would hurt me far more than what you are doing right now.
I just hope that you understand, that the more you hurt me, the harder it is on my body, my mind, and my family.
They want the best for me, and they know for a fact, that you are not the best for me.
I wish I could tell them that I agreed.
But, I can’t.
You took over me completely.
I hope you will realize that one of these days you will hurt me so badly….
That it will, literally, destroy me.
So, don’t be surprised on the day that you decide to call me up, and I don’t answer.