Monsters stalk me, taunting
Me with their menacing words,
Adore hiding in my mirror and having power
Over all, drown me in my own tears.
Breaking me down,
That’s their only purpose.
They hold me hostage,
Make me feel like a failure,
Tell me I’ll never be good enough.
Make me feel hated,
Just so damn ashamed.
Make me push away those who care,
Make me believe those people aren’t really there,
Like I’m the only person on Earth
Who shall never know affection -
Monsters are awesome at deception.

There are times I barely get by day by day

They make me lose my way,

Like I’m driving down a dead end,
Off a cliff into the middle of the Pacific.



Their biggest invasion
Was about two years ago.
It was summer 2011
I was fifteen, clinically depressed
But getting no help.
The monsters forced me to hold a knife
To my wrists and throat
But something inside of me couldn’t help but know
I was too young to die.

They couldn’t make me slice.

I got the best of them that night,
But they still do their best to fight.

I won the battle, but the war is far from over.

I will win, though, eventually,
Won’t let them torture me.
Won’t let them win…
Can’t let them get the best of me,
Can’t give in to the enemy.
I WILL WIN.

After all, I am the human.

They are just the monsters.