From My Past | Teen Ink

From My Past

April 22, 2013
By Ball0fSunshin3 SILVER, Tomball, Texas
Ball0fSunshin3 SILVER, Tomball, Texas
5 articles 9 photos 1 comment

Favorite Quote:
Find A guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heart beat, or will stay awake to watch you sleep, wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show ou off to the world when you're just in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends. Who thinks that you're just as pretty without make-up on, one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you...The one who turns to his friends with a smile and says, "She's the one!"


I was happy and feeling good
But that didn't really last
I thought that staying would help
Now I can't forget my past
I wanted to say to him:
"Stop! Why are you hurting me?"
Why did he do those things?
I guess it was my tears he couldn't see
He was angry, sad, and mean
I was with him all too often
His anger turned to me
The pain never did soften
First one push, then another
He yelled at me and his words stung
I was scared and I lost all hope
As my living hell had begun
My fear filled every though
My pain took over my heart
My faith was lost in sorrow
My life completely fell apart
I hated everything and had no one
I didn't care about my life ahead
I hated who I had become
I often wished that I were dead
I had some friends who might have cared
But I hid all of my pain and fear
I smiled and laughed and acted fine
Not one complaint did they hear hear
I stayed silent and alone
I put on my happy mask
He hurt me very deeply
And my smile broke at last
He pushed me to my limit
My mask fell from its place
I left my friends for months
Because my smile left my face
Finally he went on a trip
I spent that time alone
And found that I was happier
When I wasn't hiding away at home
My friends were happy
My friends were strong
I realized that they cared
They had been there all along
I was still wandering around
Trying to piece my life together
When my faith started coming back
I was going to hang on forever
Finally I found some peace
I found the strength to carry on
I stood up against the pain
For once I chose right instead of wrong
I gained back joy in my life
I turned away from my past
To face this world without a mask
I could smile for real at last.



Similar Articles

JOIN THE DISCUSSION

This article has 0 comments.