This kind of sadness
Is like being stuck
In the middle
Of the ocean
With no buoy
Nothing to grab
Or hold on to
It like being surrounded
By people
Swarms of them
But feeling
So alone.
Alone.
That how I feel
Like one lone tree
In the dessert
That no one
Knows is there
Sure I get up every
Morning and
Put a smile
On my face
But behind that
Smile there is
A deep sadness
Growing
And burning
I try to
Understand
But how can
I when I
Am sinking
And disappearing
In my own
Unhappiness
I go to school
Almost happy
To see my friends
But then I get
Rejected
Like a piece of
Trash, waste
It’s gotten
To the point
Where I
Believe I am.
Trash, waste
But I put
Up with the
Backstabbing
And the hate
Because it’s all I have
I would rather
Accept the hate
Than have no
Love.
What a strong word
Love.
I hear it
Everyday
But not from
The people I want
To hear it from
My parents
Don’t count
I want
My friends
To love me
As I love them
I give so much
To them but I never
Get anything
In return
I guess I
Shouldn’t expect
Anything
I mean
It’s not like
I deserve it
Or anything for that matter