Dear dumb diary,
what’s a secret without some tears what’s a promise without the fear what’s a laugh without the joke what’s anxiety without the choke what’s life without the pain what’s guilt without the shame what’s gossip without the words what’s nature without the birds if there is nothing to it than then there is nothing to lose if your indecisive then what will you choose what’s the next step what is your move labels labels label us all don't stop now I'm just beginning to fall this is what you wanted isn't it or was that more bull s*** were you trying to get your way again were you throwing a fit you promise God but then you sin what is betrayal without the friends what is the message that the angel sends what is it like to pretend to have a life were you never win what’s a lie without the joy what’s a playground without the toys it’s not a threat to God it’s a promise to the devil i refuse to let you take me I refuse to go down without a fight it’s funny how you think your winning when God is holding me so tight don’t throw hate at me try to throw my sins in my face I have a God who is al forgiving and you have no place no place in my heart no place in my life you can stop trying because I won’t give in I don’t have to lock my problems in a bin because i can handle this I can’t take it full on you tell me I am weak you tell me I’m not strong but through Christ i find my strength it’s the middle of the night yet I’m awake thinking about my purity that people tried to take but God purifies me and takes away all my chains no I am a free human being now I can see with a fresh pair of eyes all the things I was blinded by I see the good I see the bad I see how you traumatized and it’s so sad I just realized time is flying by and I am over here focused on you and obsessing over ways I could die I swore ids never be like you I fell into your trap now I’m sitting here writing this rap and I refuse to take any more of your crap because I deserve better than that you can say I fat ugly little brat I may have been that once but I’m not that today if I told you love was a game that you’d never win and dancing in the rain is an illusion would you come to the conclusion that it wasn’t worth it your searching for perfection but nothing is ever perfect but I assure your life is defiantly worth it don’t get me wrong life is hard and It will hurt flowers will die and people will pass but remember nothing ever last the pain you feel will be gone in a heartbeat things will repeat and get annoying some days you will wish you were anybody but you you’ll grow out of your shoes and shed your skin it’s time to let go have fun and just live I am not asking you to forget just to forgive