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Hidden Behind A Smile

January 30, 2014
By PhoenixTears GOLD, Stansbury Park, Utah
PhoenixTears GOLD, Stansbury Park, Utah
11 articles 6 photos 59 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life sucks. And then you die." ~Jacob (Twilight)


You may think you know me,
By the stories I've told,
By the notes I've written,
By the ever-winding roads
I've been walking for miles
In these old tattered shoes.
These shoes which have seen
Old horrors come anew
Are only a part
Of the game I must lose.

You think that you know me,
But you don't know a thing
'Bout the tireless fight,
Like I'm stuck in the ring.
A single voice says "Stop",
Then another says "go",
An endless cycle,
I'm losing control.
I need this to stop,
But I cannot say no.

You think that you know me,
You don't know how I feel,
You don't know what it's like
To hold weapons of steel.
It's so close to my flesh,
Drawing in as if reeled.
All it takes is will,
And not much of that,
For I long to feel
Anything but this black.

You think that you know me,
You don't know what I hear.
The whispering voices
But no faces appear.
With the pain of the wound
My mind begins to clear,
I can feel again.
A trickle of red
turns into a stream.
Soon life's gone, I am dead.

You think you know me,
Or you did anyway.
Society can kill,
They will lead you astray.
One single crude comment,
The last thing that you say,
Can shatter a heart,
So just stop today,
Or that girl, alone,
Might just end her last day.


The author's comments:
I was inspired to write this while I was thinking about a talk I was having with one of my good friends who, like many teens, suffers from depression. Many people who have depression, are suicidal, or self-harm are usually very misunderstood, and that usually only makes their situation harder. Reach out to people when they are secretly crying out for help!

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on Apr. 27 2014 at 6:18 am
Nella.Girl97 BRONZE, Ashland, Wisconsin
1 article 0 photos 437 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart."

Ive read all of your poems and each one has captured my heart! You are a true poet, and I know you will go far! The way you write and how you are able to connect with each and every reader is incredible! I hope you keep writing! I look forward to reading more! Thanks for all these poems you have shared! 

on Apr. 3 2014 at 1:03 am
PhoenixTears GOLD, Stansbury Park, Utah
11 articles 6 photos 59 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life sucks. And then you die." ~Jacob (Twilight)

Thanks Oceans! I appreciate you taking the time to read this!

on Apr. 3 2014 at 1:01 am
PhoenixTears GOLD, Stansbury Park, Utah
11 articles 6 photos 59 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Life sucks. And then you die." ~Jacob (Twilight)

Thank you so much! :)

on Apr. 3 2014 at 12:58 am
TheOceansBlackBird SILVER, Richmond, California
9 articles 14 photos 115 comments

Favorite Quote:
One persons craziness is another persons reality<br /> -Tim Burton<br /> <br /> and then there&#039;s this one<br /> ╭&cap;╮(︶︿︶)╭&cap;╮

Wow. This is so amazing. It has a sort of tragic beauty to it. It's devestatingly sad, but at the same time the words are just so beautiful and go together so nicely that its hard to not love this poem.

on Apr. 1 2014 at 4:05 pm
sambaggins BRONZE, Pismo, California
2 articles 0 photos 4 comments
your stuff is not shit, its amazing

on Mar. 21 2014 at 9:14 pm
Nella.Girl97 BRONZE, Ashland, Wisconsin
1 article 0 photos 437 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart.&quot;

Wow! This is beautifully written...and kinna sad! 

on Feb. 27 2014 at 2:18 pm
Beanzoinalin GOLD, Linesville, Pennsylvania
12 articles 0 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;You! Yes you reading this. You are beautiful, talented, amazing, and simply the best at being you. NEVER FORGET THAT!&quot;

I really like this poem I've written a few simalar my self you should check them out!

on Feb. 25 2014 at 3:31 am
Promethean SILVER, Kanpur, Other
8 articles 0 photos 85 comments

Favorite Quote:
An eye for an eye will make the whole world blind....

Cool, and emotional, especially last line. 

on Feb. 24 2014 at 7:39 am
skydancer666 GOLD, West Babylon, New York
10 articles 0 photos 28 comments

Favorite Quote:
on my own i am clumsy ..... but on your shoulders i am free to be me

i like this very much i relate to it alot!

on Feb. 20 2014 at 9:35 am
PhoenixTears GOLD, Stansbury Park, Utah
11 articles 6 photos 59 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;Life sucks. And then you die.&quot; ~Jacob (Twilight)

I am actually quite new to writing poems... So I am not sure as to how the syllables should be, but I attempted to make every verse in a 6666665556. That probably isn't even something that is actually used in poem writing. Any insight on correct syllable counts?

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on Feb. 20 2014 at 12:08 am
.king. SILVER, Yeux Bien Tres Bien, Other
9 articles 4 photos 569 comments

Favorite Quote:
( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡&deg;)

Nice, you should also know that the syllables count too; they can mess up the rhyme scheme if you don't take much care... but overall it's Great, keep on writing! ^_^

on Feb. 13 2014 at 12:03 am
booklover303 SILVER, Morgan Hill,
8 articles 5 photos 39 comments

Favorite Quote:
&quot;School days are the unhappiest in the whole span of human existence. They are full of dull, unintelligible tasks, new and unpleasant ordinances, with brutal violations of common sense and common decency.&quot; -Henry Louis Mencken

Nice! Very well written!