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What I'm Supposed to Do

June 18, 2014
By Roseate PLATINUM, San Ramon, California
Roseate PLATINUM, San Ramon, California
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Favorite Quote:
"Life is too short to be anything but happy."


What am I supposed to do
when waves of missing you
knock me over into the sand,
the little pieces of
the leftover "us"
that falls in between my fingers
because I can no longer grasp you
or time the way I used to?

What am I supposed to do
when I ache for you in the dead of night,
when I just want to vomit up
all the rotten bits of the pain
eating me up on the inside,
but even then I can't throw up
all the sweet memories that
are too mixed in with the bitterness,
so just how am I supposed to
cleanse myself now?

What am I supposed to do when it's so easy
to intertwine my issues
into the hands of someone new
to fill this gaping hole
you've heartlessly left behind,
but I can't because I know
he would never be able to fill in your shoes--
not him,
not anyone.

How am I supposed to forget you
as if you never happened,
as if you're already dead to me?
Tell me, how am I supposed to
kill you in my heart
when all this time
I'd been trying to keep you alive?

What do I do when all I still think about
is you,
when all I write about
is you,
when all the answers I need
lie in you,
but you can never give them to me,
so I'll forever be wondering
just what I'm supposed to do.


The author's comments:
It's easy to fall in love. To keep someone alive in your heart. But what are you supposed to do when you have to eradicate that someone from your mind and heart so you can live again? How are you supposed to do that if that person is in everything you see, say, and do? Tell me, just what am I supposed to do?

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on Jun. 20 2014 at 2:32 pm
EmilytheBelleofA. DIAMOND, Athens, Georgia
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Favorite Quote:
To love is to be vulnerable; Triumph is born out of struggle; We notice shadows most when they stand alone in the midst of overwhelming light.

I've never had experience in this before. As old as I am, (as my cousin likes to tease me) but this is great. Thank you, for sharing this!

on Jun. 19 2014 at 7:07 pm
Miss_Orange SILVER, Makati, Other
6 articles 0 photos 112 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'm OK, I'm Fine and I'm alright are the greatest lies people tell each other everyday." By Me.

*About. Sorry for the typo...  

on Jun. 19 2014 at 7:07 pm
Miss_Orange SILVER, Makati, Other
6 articles 0 photos 112 comments

Favorite Quote:
"I'm OK, I'm Fine and I'm alright are the greatest lies people tell each other everyday." By Me.

Wow, Rosie. I think anout this too, sometimes. What am I supposed to do? and this poem reflects the struggle to find the answer that never comes at all. Thank you for sharing this. :)