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Despise

July 3, 2014
By Srs42 GOLD, Coralville, Iowa
Srs42 GOLD, Coralville, Iowa
17 articles 0 photos 8 comments

Favorite Quote:
when life gives you lemons... eat them and make really weird faces at people.


My brother cried himself to sleep today.
My boyfriend just told me he was molested.
And my friend just told me she tried to kill herself last night.
Sometimes I wish it was me.
I wish I was the one who had to go through that. Just to take the pain away from them. It kills me to know... that they aren't happy.
Sometimes I hate this world...
How this world made my life almost perfect. Sometimes I hate myself. As I catch myself thinking about how I don't want to clean my room, I feel like I deserve a knife in my back. I am guilty... if I could I would trade places with the one who's suffering just to save them. A friend, a sibling, or even a stranger. Just for a moment... I pretend i'm just as messed up as you are, but then I realize I kind of am. Heck this world is just so cruel, not one person in it can be perfect. This society makes me sick, no wonder so many people want to die. So next time you call that person who attempted suicide selfish, look around you. Do you really think it was their fault for hating life? I despise myself for not being able to take away their pain. I despise myself for being happy. And I despise you for hating yourself.


The author's comments:
I don't understand what those people did to deserve such horrible events in their lives. Why am I able to be happy, when others are suffering? Why can't I help them, by taking their pain they never should of had?

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on Jul. 23 2014 at 10:45 pm
pinkplants PLATINUM, Brandon, Mississippi
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Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;Whatever you are physically...male or female, strong or weak, ill or healthy--all those things matter less than what your heart contains. If you have the soul of a warrior, you are a warrior. All those other things, they are the glass that contains the lamp, but you are the light inside.&rdquo; <br /> ― Cassandra Clare, Clockwork Angel

A lot of these things have happened to me, I admire that you wish you help other people so deeply. 

Srs42 GOLD said...
on Jul. 20 2014 at 1:59 am
Srs42 GOLD, Coralville, Iowa
17 articles 0 photos 8 comments

Favorite Quote:
when life gives you lemons... eat them and make really weird faces at people.

Thank you:)

on Jul. 13 2014 at 1:25 am
TheOceansBlackBird SILVER, Richmond, California
9 articles 14 photos 115 comments

Favorite Quote:
One persons craziness is another persons reality<br /> -Tim Burton<br /> <br /> and then there&#039;s this one<br /> ╭&cap;╮(︶︿︶)╭&cap;╮

I loved this poem. Every word you wrote is so true and it really gets to you... it really got to me. I hope that some day well all find a way to take the pain away... Keep writing