Let the beast run

let it try and find me

i don't care

devour me

leave me

whatever the beast wants

I don't care anymore

I will never care

I don't know what the beast wants 

I don't know what anyone wants

so let it run

let it chase me

let the beast chase me

I don't want to live

I don't want to die

all I want is pain

the pain that keeps my heart beating

The pain in my head that keeps me thinking 

the pain of living that keeps me breathing

I want to suffer

suffer for what I have done 

suffer for what I have become

let the beast cast a shadow over me

let the smell waft over me 

leaving my lungs tight

let the memries come flowing back

let the crisp harsh words swarm around my head

leaving me dizzy

let the tornado of feelings storm through me

not giving me a secound to think

the sounds and smells wizzing around me

causing my brain to clog

I want to die

I need to live

let the beast decide

the beast will keep me alive

or tear me limb from limb

I am done with deciding

I am done with choosing

so let the beast run