I should not ever
I will not ever
Why am I in this place
dull and hueless
life slips away everyday you told me
I don't
I knew that I won't
You gave me no sympathy
No time to recover
I left this and so did my spirit
You broke me with your dagger shaped words
The rumors you told
The way you treated me
I am a person
Not a slave
I hate that I gave into your ways
I suffered
I struggled
I cried
I tried
I never should have
If I knew I never would have
You are not a nice person
You're as rude as they come
I am as much of a human as you
I swear under my breath
Having been through this before

A new start
A new chance
I was left with scars
I shouldn't have but I did
I picked at my scabs
I turned my friends into something they are not
I was trying to keep from getting hurt
Or stepped on like dirt
I was too cautious
Too clingy
Too fragile
I tried to keep them
But that made them drift away
I thought maybe if I kept them close
They wouldn't drift so far
But the rope snapped they floated off to sea
I sit at the dock as the new chances come and go
Too worried to be let in
Hiding
Crying
Not understanding
I am scared of loneliness
My thoughts about me
I bully my self
I drove them away
Still to this day
I shouldn't have
I wouldn't have
Had I known
I'd come out the same