I have always had so much hate in me toward you.  All those words put in my head. "Her," is what they called you.  "You gonna be a drunk just like her," "Grow up and be a crackhead, just like her."  But what does "just like her" really mean?  All those years of neglect.  Hate.  All those mean things we said to each other.  Years go by of wasted time.  Wasted memories. This sick sick war we were at , but little did I know you had to fight too. Losing all your kids, trying your best to get right but everybody keeps shuting you down, not giving you opportunity. Everyone giving up on you now I know how you feel I'm in your shoes. Life as we know it. Me falling in your footsteps , of your child hood and now I call you and the first thing I say is "I love you!'' As we get stronger and grow I will love you forever, head to toe you are you and I love you. Every chance chance I will let you know it.