I was so strong

Cracking in places, but still dry-eyed like a wall of cement

Hurt that you never answer, hurt that you're never here

Pretending the whole week like I didn't really care

Oh, but I did

The bruises were beginning to show through my eyelids

I remained strong

An hour too late, she noticed your message, but by then

You were already gone

Your words, they burned a hole through my exterior

They let the inside of me show

Hey, baby girl

I wasn't strong anymore

Something inside of me broke and the tears streamed

Out of the punctured wound in my exterior

I broke down like a truck with a busted engine

I have a busted heart

But you aren't here to hold me

Why can't you hold me

Hey, baby girl

Why am I your baby girl?

How did I become your baby girl?

Those words broke the strength within me

And I can't explain why the tears came falling down

Hot, blessed, eternal tears

I've wished for all my life to be worthy

To somehow be my daddy's baby girl

Never, never worthy

But without question or explanation

I just am

I'm your baby girl

How? Why? When? What did I do?

How am I your baby girl?

Why is this making me cry?

When did this happen?

What did I do to deserve such a title?

I'm like a river

Streaming

Every time I read those words

What, God, did I do

To deserve

This

"Hey, baby girl"