Here I am.

Right now in this moment,
I am pure
I am innocent
I am filled with nothing.

Here I am, but I am not alone this time.
I have met new people that are like me,
They have shown me a different side that I never knew.
I am curious
I am amazed
I am filled with happiness.

Here I am, and I am alone again.
The people that I thought would be by my side forever,
We have drifted away from each other.
The similarities that seemed to bring us together
Are now driving us apart.
The laughter has stopped and only the unfamiliar feeling is left.
I wonder if there is something wrong with me,
So I stay away from everyone and keep to myself.
The people have left,
I am confused
I am upset
I am filled with pain.

Here I am. Again.
This time, I do not know where I am.
This place, here, is so foreign to me.
I continue to look around, but everything I see is unfamiliar.
I shout into the void,
I cry, waiting to be found.
I am lost
I am scared
I am filled with a strange feeling.

Here I am.
And I am finding my way back home.
No one can save me, but myself.

Here I am, and you can’t see it, but I am smiling.
Turns out life will throw curve balls at you, one after another.
The strange feeling is long gone,
I have met my better half on the journey back home.
This person makes me want to go on adventures,
Makes me want to run away and be free.
I am laughing
I am unstoppable
I am filled with butterflies.

Here we are.
Everything has worked itself out, and patience was key.
I feel invincible, so we act as if I am.
I follow my heart instead of my brain
Yet I think of myself first.
I run, I dance, I sing,
I don’t have a care in the world.
I am free
I am living
I am filled with life.

Here I am.
I am not sure what had just happened
But the person that I trusted my heart with,
Just tore it apart and shattered it to pieces.
I was so dependent on this person, after what had just happened,
I am back to square one again.
Without this person, I cannot do anything.
My actions will have no meaning and my thoughts will be blank.
How could this happen to me again?
I sit in silence, unable to move.
I am crying
I am numb
I am filled with tears.

Here I am, unable to recover.
I tried to pick myself up
I tried to act like I used to.
But, everything I do is pointless.
I am trying
I am trying really hard
I am filled with disappointment.

Here I am.
I have figured it out.
To feel safe again, I need to find my way back home.
I am walking
I am thinking
I am filled with security.

Here I am.
This time, I know exactly where I am.
I found myself back in my place and although I was lost,
I am not anymore.
Wow. I did it.
I am not exactly sure what I did, but I feel a sense of satisfaction.
Once again, I am acting as if I am invincible,
But this time I do not need anyone to cheer me on.
I am proud
I am humming
I am filled with light.

Here I am.
I am not the same person as I was before.

Here I am.
I am complicated
I am experienced
I am filled with certainty.