I often ponder on the thought of You.

I just sit alone and let thoughts race through my head. 

I let them drift and sway in my mind. 

I get in a place of sin, and my thoughts become less of you and more of Him.

I attempt and hide them for your presence,

but you already know my every thought, 

every move, 

every word, 

every sight that goes this earthly body. 

I try to be like you, I really do. 

But in a world that more often then not, hates you, 

it's hard to be like you. 

I wanna be your light, but it seems like you're not mine. 

I go to you and give you all my burdens, 

but it's like you throw them back. 

I want to be yours. 

I want you to fill me up, 

and be mine. 

But sometimes it's hard, and I start to ponder again, and I think...

God, are you there?