If i ever fell in love ,
something i have never heard of.
i never knew love would feel like a heart attack ,
like a hard smack .
i never knew it would hurt this f***ing bad ,
worst pain that i have ever had .
loving you was toxic ,
it was catastrophic.
loving you was like hugging a cactus ,
the more it hurt the more i must .
Loving you hurts ,
for me that's a first .
i never knew i would feel this low ,
all this was a stupid show .
you the villain ,
but its me your killing .
From the inside out ,
my heart now stout .
Black like a smokers lungs ,
my heart spoken to in tongues .
when can i have my life back ,
with this my brain i rack .
its sad to say,
that i pray for the day .
where i will be okay,
hope it's before may .